Thoughts..

a very good friend passed away last weekend
someone i grew up with, wasn't that close to me
but a dear one, indeed

it's sad not just because he's gone
it's also sad to realize that we have now reached
a stage in our lives that we hear sad news like this

before, we hear about someone much older passing
for which you know was inevitable and forthcoming, someone old, someone ill
and for which you are ready for... more or less
it made me realize how short life is
and made me wonder what i have done so far
not only for myself and loved ones

more importantly to make other people's lives more liveable
because isn't that what life is really about
it's about living and making a difference for others

life is too short to be spent working
to be stuck in your cubicle trying to please someone trying to please another
in the end, would it matter
if you made the deadline by trying to kill yourself by working extra hours

would it make someone's life any easier or more liveable
if you come to work everyday just for the sake of working
perhaps it does, more likely it does not

because life is more than working
and goes so much beyond trying to earning as much money as you can
at what price do we pay
if we waste life a minimum of eight hours a day, day by day

don't get me wrong, we need to work
it's hard work indeed to live
but more often we end up doing the opposite
living to work more than working to live
we can't slack around and yet we also can't work to death

how do we strike that balance
between living life and living to pay your credit card balance
between working hard to give your loved ones the best life can offer
and spending more time with them instead of with your computer

some travel far and wide, abroad or otherwise
spending more time on the road, away from family and friends
before they realize that the chase for more money is never going to end
at what price do we pay when no amount of riches could compare to time spent with loved ones
more money does not always equate to a happy life

a friend once said everyone needs to make sacrifices
true enough, they sacrifice living far apart so that they can provide a good future for their children

i am not here to provide answers
even i am struggling to make sense of everything
what is life all about and what's right or wrong
everyday is a challenge, everyday i wake up thinking
this again.. there has to be a better way to live!

but then again, still we get up each day
we push on and we move on
because that is also what life is about
to live, love and survive and when we fail and fall, which we do quite often
we get up and do it all over again

stubborn as an ass, we all are, it may seem
all we can do is hope and pray that God is taking us where we should be
and that He guides us to do what we need to do in His time..